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Monday, August 31, 2009

Making Meaning

When I first took my hiatus I was exhausted. Spent. Emotionally weak in the knees and ready for a break from life. What I wanted to do was spend some time hiking in the green gorgeousness that is my home state, float lazily in a mountaintop lake, clean my house, do some major reorganization in my storage room, and get on top of some paperwork.

Only some of that happened.

The hiking will take place next week. The floating--hmmmm---not sure when. (Anyone have a mountaintop lake they would like to suggest?) The organization and paperwork should be finished soon. And my house is clean.

What I jokingly also wanted was a complete personality transplant and a chance to entirely redo my life. Mostly I wanted to be refreshed and renewed. I do feel both of these things and for that I am so grateful. One feeling I have had strongly the last few days is that I have been given a beautiful life full of great riches like family and friends and education and opportunities and environment and talents. I feel thankful for so much goodness. It is nice to be reminded about all of this, especially on those days when I don't see them so clearly.

I missed writing and reading here. Several times the thought has occurred to me "I want to blog about that" only to remember that I said I was going to take a break and I better keep my word.

I've spent some time thinking about the direction of the blog, the stories I want to tell, the things I want to share. One of my passions has always been writing about people, our relationships, and the daily things that fill our lives with meaning and purpose. I hope to do more of that kind of writing in the future here.

I think I've always worried a bit that I'm not entertaining enough, witty enough or laugh-out-loud funny in my writing. My words bend to the thoughtful, reflective and introspective. I so enjoy teasing out the riddles, the issues, the details that I sometimes forget the sunshine and silliness. Luckily, I have great people surrounding me who remind me to come up for air once in a while and chortle through family dinner or giggle at some goofiness or titter at a funny tale. Which just reminds me that in all of my earnestness that laughter is a blessing to not leave behind.

So, here is to more writing, more blogging, my future semester and remembering to enjoy the ride. I love this quote by Mr. Thoreau, a rather thoughtful, introspective writer himself.

I went into the woods because I wanted to live deliberately. I wanted to live deep and suck out all the marrow of life . . . to put to rout all that was not life; and not, when I came to die, discover that I had not lived.
~Henry David Thoreau, Walden

I'm back and ready to "live deep and suck out all the marrow of life." You too?

9 comments:

Christine said...

Welcome back! I've missed your writing. You are amazing and I love to hear how you think.

Eden said...

Christine--Kudos to you for being the first to comment on my return. I've missed the conversation here and I love reading comments. So, thanks for getting things going.

Eric and Rozanne said...

Sounds like you are off to another great school year. If you hear of a mountain lake, I'd love to go floating too. :) Can't wait to try the corn salsa. Your mom has always had great recipes.

Ben and Ash Rasmussen said...

Excited to be able to read your amazing posts again. Good luck in the upcoming school year:)!

Cissy said...

I know you often wonder what is the focus of your blog; I say bring a little of everything. Isn't that what makes a personality?

Goose said...

I'm grateful you have this blog to share your voice. I'm also glad you have your family dinners to giggle over Rus' latest joke. Isn't it fun to have someone who just makes you laugh? That has always been Ed for me.

L & H & Q & E said...

Write whatever you have to say. We want to hear it all.

Mary Jane said...

Eden - yeah you're back!! I missed you!! I love reading your blog. It lets me live creatively through you..ha ha

Eden said...

My friends, each of you are a dear soul and make me thrilled when I hear from you. I love reading what you have to say.

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