I'm taking some classes this semester.
I kid you not.
One of the perks of my employment is free tuition and in my long and snore-inducing bout of indecision of what to do next in my life, I've taken several classes to try and find what the next road for me is. I'm consistently torn between two paths and writing is one of them.
I've taken several creative writing classes and loved them all. I was planning on doing graduate work in Creative Writing. I still want to do that. Just not right now. (And please don't ask why, I'm not sure even I can explain it.)
For now, though I'm taking a few classes that give me a taste of another path. I'm not sure this is the right decision. But it is a decision and for me indecision is a giant mound of immovability that threatens to suffocate me. Daily. So, I'm moving forward. I'm testing the waters. I'm trying things out. I don't know if this new path will go down in flames or if it will turn out to be the answer I am looking for. I just don't know. What I do know is that it is time to move ahead, change my course, try something new.
I want my work life to involve something that I love to do EVERY DAY. Something that I am very, very good at doing. Something that can capture my interest not just for months, but for years. I want to help people too. Writing can do all of that for me, but yet, I'm still drawn in this other direction as well.
I'm very clear about what I don't want to do: business, computers, math, science, healthcare, and once again anything business. Of course, I know business is involved in nearly any path you take, but what I mean is I don't want to go and do a job each day just to do it. I don't want to sit in a cubicle (or a cinderblock office) and answer the phone and answer email and fix computer problems and manage a server and sometimes edit a website.
What I do want is meaning and purpose and talking about the things that really matter to people. I want to hear people's hearts. And I want to write about what I learn.
So, I'm taking a couple of classes. I've barely dipped my toe in. I'm observing, collecting information and hoping that whatever occurs, I will at the end of this semester have a smidgen more clarity if I should continue down this road.
What that means though is my writing on this blog is going to be highly curtailed. My goal until December is to post at least weekly. Maybe more, maybe less. We will see. I've kept a pretty good pace going here the past few months and I'm sad to leave that frequency behind. I hope you will all still stop by and comment on what I do post. Because I've so enjoyed that aspect of this blog. The friends (and new friends) that come and read and comment.
And what do you know, maybe on this new path, I will leave the mountain of indecision behind me too. Forever.
I can dream, can't I?